High Fives and Hello’s

Milestones. I call every single new thing my baby does a “milestone.” Most recently she says “Hi” and “uh-oh” all the time and loves to give high fives. I am so amazed by the smallest things and obviously I think shes the absolute smartest baby in the world!

Motherhood is so funny at times, especially when I’m having an out of body experience and watching myself react to all of the different ways she’s growing. Its wonderful and hilarious to see the things my husband and I will do just to get a smirk or a little laughter from our tiny human.

Now that she is nearing the 1 year mark I don’t even know what feelings the next milestones will invoke. I mean I know she’ll be walking and talking soon and creating great big huge milestones, but I have a feeling they won’t feel quite as big or important as the first giggle, the first time she rolled to her tummy, or the first time she signed for milk. Though, they will be much bigger and more important because she won’t be attached to me anymore. She just started to realize in the last few months that we are in fact, not physically attached. I don’t know if either of us can take it sometimes!

She’ll start walking and talking and the years will fly by and she’ll go on her very first date! She’ll get her drivers license and I know I’ll worry more then than I do now while she’s completely under my watchful wing. The milestones are what I look forward to, but they are also what I’m afraid of. I’m afraid as the milestones get easier for her and start happening closer together that they’ll just get that much harder for me.

Motherhood is one of the best things that ever happened to me and from the very beginning it’s been the toughest. I’ve never felt the need to protect, to love, to give to any human as much as I feel the need now. What’s funny is I feel the need to love and protect and give more to myself now too. I know my daughter needs a strong, healthy, giving, caring, and smart mother to look up to and I want to be exactly that. Since I’m afraid of all of the milestones she’ll experience while growing up, I must grow with her and create my own.

Working on myself and on my goals and creating a vision for the mother I want to be is becoming more of a priority than ever. Maybe my daughter will clap her hands and say “Go Mommy!” when she notices my achievements, haha!

What have been your favorite milestones while watching your child(ren) grow? Please leave a comment below!

Showing Off on Social

My life looks like pure magic lately! It looks like everything is so fabulous lately, and really when I look at the big picture I hate to say it, because I don’t want to make you jealous, but it really is!!  I mean, I get to do soooo many fun things!!!

With that said, I have had some really bad days recently.

We were in a car crash on Easter and have been down to one car for about two weeks now because of several things going on with the insurance and the multiple vehicles involved. No, it wasn’t even our fault!

I am constantly playing catch up with work and I feel like I will never be completely caught up but am doing the best I can. To top that off, my laptop (which I just payed off after 2 years) just crashed. It has my entire life on it I feel like and doesn’t help work a bit. After compiling document after document to become more organized with work, I have no access.

As soon as I think I have it all kind of together my daughter gets sick. Do you know that a 10 month old sick baby girl needs more attention than a fine dining restaurant ridden with rodents? Well, now you do.

My debit card fell into the river after I bolted out of the car to check on my daughter after the crash. We all know how it feels when we have to change cards. You have to connect the dots and figure out everyone who deducts a payment for a bill. Sometimes it’s seriously a mystery and then you get a phone call or an email and ding ding ding, lights on!

Wait, so why do I think my life is so fabulous? Because it is!!! It took me a lot of time, grief, and growing up to realize it. My life is completely unreal and perfectly imperfect. Sometimes something hits me in the face and I impulsively want to scream out, but I make sure to become aware of my emotion and raise my gratitude towards God for my beautiful life. I have the most amazing husband who loves me to no end. I have a beautiful step-daughter who is probably one of the most grown up teenagers I’ve ever met and much much smarter than me. I have a baby girl that is incredible and lights up my life every day. Plus, the amazing family and friends that are near and far away bring so much positivity to my life. That, is what life is all about. The small things are pretty stupid in the grand scheme. It’s time to dumb the dumb things down.

Every time I look out at a crowd I think, “Wow.” Every one of us thinks we’re so important and we each have things and emotions and needs that we think are so important as well. Sometimes, you just have to step back and look at the big picture.

I notice that when I do, I’m nurtured with blessings that I didn’t even know were going to exist. Some of those blessings I share on social and some of them I keep for myself. Xo Julie Ann